just a li-i-i-i-i-ttle bit more.

2 more evaluation assignments

2 more weekly practicum reports

1 final exam

1 research paper (approximately 30 pages)

1 practicum report (approximately 30 pages)

1 presentation of my experience as a Parent Educator this semester

in addition:

complete my teacher portfolio

visit elementary schools of interest to give that sparkling 1st impression to land myself a job

then hopefully...land myself a job

In all honesty, I am somewhat paralyzed by this list. I feel my body moving in slow motion. I am out of juice.

On top of that...I don't want to do the above list. None of it. I don't want to do one single one of those assignments. I'm tired. I'm so so tired.

However....I do want to graduate.

I do want to walk across the stage.

I do want to never write another paper of this magnitude again.

In order to get there I must conquer the above. And then I can tend to all in my life that is beyond neglected...my child, my body, my creative self, my friends, my family, my laundry, my floors, my storage unit, my new stack of papers piling high, my bills, my job, my car....& more.

while contemplating how to begin the paper I'm working on right now (you know, the one I'm stalling on by writing this blog??), I took a 20 minute nap, then hopped in the tub with the Ensign and read, "You pile up enough tomorrows, and you'll find you've collected a lot of empty yesterdays...there is no tomorrow to remember if we don't do something today....we must do that which is of greatest importance. Let us not procrastinate those things which matter most."

With that being said, I now sit at my computer. Upon selecting PUBLISH POST I will write my little heart out to complete yet another paper. For I know, I am a procrastinator. And I also know I have filled up enough days moving in slow motion terrified of the list, terrified of failing, terrified of what comes next if I pass. I know that this is important, and I must complete it.

I'll be checked out just a little longer....I've got to get this darn list done.

I love you all.

stephanie