i'm awake.  it's about to be 1am and i'm awake.  in that same token, there is a sweet free children's art show/concert by one of my favorite children's musicians happening early in the morning and i would give anything to be snoozing so i can be fresh for that.
you might also assume that that teenage boy of mine is sleeping so that at least one of us is fresh for our outing.  but you would be wrong.  because at 7pm tonight he thought he'd try to go to bed and attempt to sleep through the night.  well he's in the shower now in hopes that the water will calm his body and mind and that he will soon find his fresh smelling self back in dreamland.  goodness i hope so.

our place here inTexas is quite rain deprived and right this very second the treehouse tree branches and leaves are blowing frantically in the wind and there is a subtle constant rumble of thunder accompanied by an occasional flash of lightning that lights up my living room.  no rain.  none.  but all signs of possibility that make it very exciting.  even as i type the thunder seems to gain more power and the tree more enthusiasm.  this would be a celebration i tell you!  i have opened my back door to soak it all in and if i could bottle the sounds and smell i would.  now there is rain.  sweet beautiful rain. sigh...

i was hoping for a more productive day, but my cute boy was able to pass off his sailingMerit badge for scouts and i finally made the vegetable soup i'd been saying i was going to make for weeks and well, there's rain.  what more could i ask for, right?
in truth, i am trying to write up a business plan.  it's hard.  and not that i'm not expecting it to be, and not that i think i am not capable of hard things....it's just hard.  after a ton of searching i finally found an example, a template, a smidge of something that resembles a business plan and wouldn't you know it was 22pages?  omg, business is grad school all over;)  i'm still trying to see if it's a model i can use to guide me.  in truth, i feel like i could write all about what i'm doing.  i feel like i have really thought through a lot of things and am anxious to fill in the gaps.  i just don't know a darn thing about business plans.  and since we (theBPlan and I) are not on familiar terms, i find myself stalling and procrastinating and such.  i was hoping for a friday deadline, but perhaps it will be next friday:)  that's okay, right?  i'll follow this 22page beast and hopefully it will help me be extra thorough.  i need a bank/grant to see my vision and totally want to help me get started.  i look awful on paper.  really awful.  but i'm not, i swear.  hence the need to think a bit out of the box and do something with my life that makes me look not so bad on paper. 

okay, okay, i'm rambling my life away.  we should lie in the dark and watch the storm. 
and then fall asleep for real,yo.