i opened up this blog, and clicked new post.
i have writer's block.
i have share-your-life-with-other's block.
i have keep-record-of-your-life block.
i have it's-like-riding-a-bike block.

but i can tell you this...
things are okay.
we are cruisin along in life.
things are tricky and confusing
and simple and okay all at once.
we are actively working toward better.
we are making sense of things that boggle the mind and wreck the heart and that attempt to alter the spirit.

i have really good spiritual goals and they are my only focus in life,
other than this beautiful boy of mine.
outside of that, i work to provide for my family (i don't live for my job).
i clean and organize and get rid of and repeat to care for my family.
i work out (hardly ever but sometimes) to be better for myself and my family.
i read scriptures to understand myself and heavenly father's plan for me and my family.
i pray so that i have an actual, real, and personal relationship with god.
i live to be really in tune with the holy ghost so i can get some guidance and direction in life.
and i parent to love and nurture and provide guidance.
i have friendships to love and remind me what it's like to feel love.

i've been nominated for teacher of the year again.
it feels good to be recognized in the midst of flaws and imperfection,
and to feel like i'm still doing a good job in the eyes of my peers.
i don't know that it's possible to feel completely spot on in this job,
but i'm feeling okay about where i'm headed.

for now, that's my hello and my news and my update and my simple little insight to today.